I Am Not Only Stephanie

Do you know that you are a fraction of God?  You can call that anything you like:  Creator, Spirit, Source, Infinite Intelligence, The Divine, The All That Is, YHWH.....in fact, in Kabbalah there are 72 names of God.  Whatever you call it, it is a unified energy that links everything.  It is even what comes before energy, the potential, the origin of all there is.  Because everything emanates from this source, there is no separation; all is one.  Everything in existence is a manifestation coming from this energy or consciousness.  All that exists has consciousness.  Consciousness can flow from one thing to another, or in other words, it can move its awareness into many different things.

We are individuations of God.  We contain a portion of God's energy.  A spark of the Divine is within all of us.

A larger portion of the God Self is the Monad and from the Monad stems the Oversoul, which is then fractionated into souls.  The soul enters a body to experience an existence or a life.  Souls coming from the same Monad and Oversoul are in the same soul family.  We all merge back together eventually, after as much has been experienced as possible and then we all merge back into The One.  It is much more complicated than this as there are infinite universes and an expansiveness that is beyond our comprehension.  Additionally, there are infinite life forms and states of being throughout the multiverse.  Those have their own hierarchical systems and sets of laws which govern their existence.

Perhaps all of this exists so God can experience itself and ultimately, we can know ourselves as God.  Perhaps this is all for infinite expansion.  Because what else would we do?  We get bored with stagnation and sameness.  

Even though I sound like I know what I am talking about, it is impossible for me to fully know the mind of God or what it is all about.  I can only express what I feel I know at this time from my personal experiences.  I do not believe that any human can fully know what God is all about, since we are operating through a human brain, which has major limitations.  One thing I know for sure is that I really don't know anything at all.  I have ideas and experiences.

I have had a few interesting experiences, which have shown me that I am more than the person that is typing these words.

One morning as I was waking up I gained consciousness just before the moment of waking.  My consciousness was outside of my body and while in that state of awareness, I, the "I" that is not Stephanie, thought to myself, "Now, which one am I again?"  I was trying to re-enter the body, but first needed to remember who I was being in that life.  I remembered and began to feel who I was being.  I thought, "Oh yeah, I am that woman, Stephanie."  I then began to feel the essence of her in totality, an encapsulated energetic snapshot of all she is in that particular life.  It was a very strange sensation to experience consciousness from outside the perspective of Stephanie.  I am living a life as Stephanie, but I am not only her.  I am just being her for a while.  A portion of consciousness is in her.  I am experiencing life through her, which is a unique expression and a way to gather more experience.  But the I that was outside of her is me.  Is your brain starting to hurt?

Another time, I was under hypnosis experiencing another lifetime.  I was a young woman with a baby.  I was lying on my back on the grass in a field on a very sunny day holding my baby up in the air above me.  The sun was shining brightly in my face.  The baby was smiling and having so much fun being held above me.  I was very happy.  This was in the 1940s in Europe.  A little later in that life I died in the holocaust.

I was doing a hypnosis session with a friend sometime after my experience above and she went into another lifetime.  She proceeded to tell me about the exact same scene as I have just described with the young woman and the baby on a sunny day lying in the grass.  All of the details were the same.  Later in that life she died in the Holocaust.

So, whose life was it?  Hers or mine or both?  Do we share the same soul?  Or did she pick up on my alternate lifetime because she was unconsciously tapping into my energetic field while in that altered state of consciousness?  I have heard that this is a common occurrence.  So, when we have alternate life memories, are they really our own?  Since consciousness can flow through all things, perhaps we can access the lives of any being.  How do we really know if they are our own experiences?  Sometimes alternate life memories are programmed into our minds so that we can access that information, because it is pertinent to our learning for that lifetime.  But in the end, since we are really all connected and one, can't we all tap into the universal mind to experience any existence?  So, when we are having those memories of alternate experiences, who are we being then?  Now my brain is starting to hurt.

Incidentally, this friend of mine passed away last year.  When I found out about her passing, she came to me in a dream as a black panther.  I knew the panther was her, because I know her energetic signature.  There was no question it was her.  She took that form to make a symbolic statement for me.   We are each a unique essence that is knowable no matter what form we are in.

Once, during a Life Between Lives hypnosis session, while in my soul-state in the spirit world, my father came to me.  He was pure energy.  I could feel his essence completely and it was him, but he had no form other than this flowing energy that was a distinct color.  The color was like a mixture of gold, green, yellow, and tan.  When we are not in a body, we are still who we are at the soul level and so much more.

I have had very real experiences of being in different forms.  One time in a dream that felt more like a memory than a dream, I was a moth.  I was sleeping under the wooden seat on a wooden canoe on a peaceful lake at dawn.  The boat was close to shore.  Some humans were walking to the boat about to take a canoe ride together.  I remember hearing those humans talking and walking toward the canoe, knowing they were about to get into it and that I had to force myself to wake up fully and fly away even though I was tired.  I did not want to fly away since I had been sleeping and was still tired, but as any moth would do, I flew away once they stepped into the canoe.  How could I have such a memory of being a moth?  I have no idea, but I did.

Another time while meditating, I spontaneously became a dolphin.  I was swimming through the water and could feel the soft water on my dolphin skin.  I was moving up and down through the water as a dolphin does and I was with one of my friends, someone I know in this life.  We decided to incarnate as humans to experience this type of physicality, at least this was my knowing when we were swimming together as dolphins.

Another experience I had was one night when I was falling asleep.  At the moment of falling asleep, I became a lion.  I was walking as the lion and felt like this was who I really was and that being the human Stephanie was more of a temporary existence.  As soon as I became consciously aware of being the lion, I woke up and was pulled out of the lion and completely back into Stephanie.  The next night, upon falling asleep, the exact same thing happened.

There are infinite parallel universes with infinite yous.  For every decision you make, there are alternate yous making different decisions to fulfill all the other options available in that situation in order to experience all possibilities.  This ensures that your soul experiences everything within the realm of possible to bring that information back to your soul family, Oversoul, Monad and back to God.  The yous in all those other parallel realities are just like the you you are now with negligible differences.  This is the explanation I recently read in Dolores Cannon's, The Convoluted Universe, Book One.  I don't know what is truth, but this is a fun concept that I have also read about in one of Neale Donald Walsch's books.

That may explain the dream I once had in which I was having a deep-hearted conversation with my parents, who were not really my parents in this life.  But they were my parents in some reality and it was I, Stephanie, who was talking to them.  But maybe it was another I that I was tapping into.  The situation and feelings applied to this life as me, too.

Another unusual experience I had was when I was talking to a friend and suddenly I was overcome with the feeling that I was her and she was me; there was no separation or other.  It was a surreal feeling and hard to describe.  This happened twice with two different friends and it was the same exact feeling.

So, who am I?  I am consciousness.  I am a spark of the Divine.  And so are you.  I am you and you are me and we are being different aspects of each other, because we are all God.  We are one.

Mental Telepathy Blowing My Mind

I have spent the past 5 days taking care of my son while he's been sick.  I think that has something to do with the instances of telepathy that we have been having that have been absolutely jaw-dropping to both of us.  Over and over again we would have the same thoughts and one of us would speak them out loud.  We would both crack up as we told the other that we had been thinking the exact same thing at that exact moment - things that were un-related to anything we had been talking about or doing.  "Hey, I was just about to say that!", or "I was just thinking that!", became the theme of the day.  One night we even had the same dream!

The same thing happened when I was taking care of my father when he had cancer.  Those times we actually said the same sentences in unison multiple times.  Those instances of telepathy really blew our minds.  One day we were driving along the highway near DC.  It was a beautiful fall day and the leaves were all kinds of brilliant colors.  We had been silent for some time and one of us commented on how pretty the trees were.  After another pause in conversation, at the same time we both said, "You don't get this out in Colorado."  We looked at each other wide-eyed and jaws-dropped.  We had not even been talking about Colorado at all.  I had lived there prior to coming home to take care of my dad, but we had not mentioned Colorado in our conversations.

I think that when we are in close proximity with another and spend a lot of time with that person, our energy fields merge and we can pick up on the thoughts of the other.  I think it is nothing more complicated than that.  Even so, it is always amazing when it happens.

Another interesting story of telepathy I have is when I was pregnant with Skyler.  I remember I was walking into my living room not really thinking about anything in particular when there was a sudden, booming announcement in my head.  Yes, I heard this inside my head and with it came a visual, like the title to a Broadway show in lights.  The announcement was dramatic and big.  It said, "June 26th!"  Skyler's estimated due date was June 21st, so I thought, "Huh, I wonder if someone is telling me the date my son will be born?  And, I wonder who that someone is?"

I went into labor on June 25th and thought, "Oh well, I guess that date was not his birthdate."  Little did I know at the time that I would labor overnight and my son would be born on June 26th.

Just a few days ago, Skyler told me that he had two pre-birth memories.  One of them was before he was in the womb, while he was still on the other side.  He said that I had asked him which date he would like to be born and I threw out several dates.  He chose June 26th.  He distinctly remembers choosing that date to be born.  That explains my sudden urgency to get pregnant.  It really had not been on my mind and we had only been married for a year when I told my husband (now ex), "I have to have a baby NOW."  And that is how it went down.  The push to get pregnant felt as if it were coming from the soul of my son wanting to be born.  The drive to have a baby right then was overwhelming.

There is another story of telepathic communication I had with my son while he was in the womb.  One day while pregnant, I was reading through a book of baby names at someone's house.  I came across the name Adonis, which means "extremely handsome man".  I was alone and laughed inwardly, thinking that it would be so ridiculous if I named my son Adonis.  The next day I had a session with an energy healer over the phone.  She was able to communicate with my son in the womb.  The first thing she told me was that he was saying that I should name him Adonis!  She said he was laughing, making a joke.  That kid did come in with quite a sense of humor!  I could not believe that he was able to pick up on my thoughts.

Since then I have learned that babies in the womb are totally aware of what is going on and can read the minds of their mothers and fathers.  I take my hypnosis clients into the womb and they tell me from the soul-state all that is going on in the family they are about to be born into, why they chose that family and that life and many other things that we don't think babies in the womb would be aware of.  But of course!  They are still on the other side.  It is only when they are born that the veil of forgetfulness is put down.  Only now, it seems that that veil is thinning.  Telepathy is becoming more frequent for me and my intuition has grown tremendously.  Things are shifting so fast.  We are in some exciting times for sure and I think it is becoming more and more fun!