Thursday, November 29, 2012

I Am Not Only Stephanie

Do you know that you are a fraction of God?  You can call that anything you like:  Creator, Spirit, Source, Infinite Intelligence, The Divine, The All That Is, fact, in Kabbalah there are 72 names of God.  Whatever you call it, it is a unified energy that links everything.  It is even what comes before energy, the potential, the origin of all there is.  Because everything emanates from this source, there is no separation; all is one.  Everything in existence is a manifestation coming from this energy or consciousness.  All that exists has consciousness.  Consciousness can flow from one thing to another, or in other words, it can move its awareness into many different things.

We are individuations of God.  We contain a portion of God's energy.  A spark of the Divine is within all of us.

A larger portion of the God Self is the Monad and from the Monad stems the Oversoul, which is then fractionated into souls.  The soul enters a body to experience an existence or a life.  Souls coming from the same Monad and Oversoul are in the same soul family.  We all merge back together eventually, after as much has been experienced as possible and then we all merge back into The One.  It is much more complicated than this as there are infinite universes and an expansiveness that is beyond our comprehension.  Additionally, there are infinite life forms and states of being throughout the multiverse.  Those have their own hierarchical systems and sets of laws which govern their existence.

Perhaps all of this exists so God can experience itself and ultimately, we can know ourselves as God.  Perhaps this is all for infinite expansion.  Because what else would we do?  We get bored with stagnation and sameness.  

Even though I sound like I know what I am talking about, it is impossible for me to fully know the mind of God or what it is all about.  I can only express what I feel I know at this time from my personal experiences.  I do not believe that any human can fully know what God is all about, since we are operating through a human brain, which has major limitations.  One thing I know for sure is that I really don't know anything at all.  I have ideas and experiences.

I have had a few interesting experiences, which have shown me that I am more than the person that is typing these words.

One morning as I was waking up I gained consciousness just before the moment of waking.  My consciousness was outside of my body and while in that state of awareness, I, the "I" that is not Stephanie, thought to myself, "Now, which one am I again?"  I was trying to re-enter the body, but first needed to remember who I was being in that life.  I remembered and began to feel who I was being.  I thought, "Oh yeah, I am that woman, Stephanie."  I then began to feel the essence of her in totality, an encapsulated energetic snapshot of all she is in that particular life.  It was a very strange sensation to experience consciousness from outside the perspective of Stephanie.  I am living a life as Stephanie, but I am not only her.  I am just being her for a while.  A portion of consciousness is in her.  I am experiencing life through her, which is a unique expression and a way to gather more experience.  But the I that was outside of her is me.  Is your brain starting to hurt?

Another time, I was under hypnosis experiencing another lifetime.  I was a young woman with a baby.  I was lying on my back on the grass in a field on a very sunny day holding my baby up in the air above me.  The sun was shining brightly in my face.  The baby was smiling and having so much fun being held above me.  I was very happy.  This was in the 1940s in Europe.  A little later in that life I died in the holocaust.

I was doing a hypnosis session with a friend sometime after my experience above and she went into another lifetime.  She proceeded to tell me about the exact same scene as I have just described with the young woman and the baby on a sunny day lying in the grass.  All of the details were the same.  Later in that life she died in the Holocaust.

So, whose life was it?  Hers or mine or both?  Do we share the same soul?  Or did she pick up on my alternate lifetime because she was unconsciously tapping into my energetic field while in that altered state of consciousness?  I have heard that this is a common occurrence.  So, when we have alternate life memories, are they really our own?  Since consciousness can flow through all things, perhaps we can access the lives of any being.  How do we really know if they are our own experiences?  Sometimes alternate life memories are programmed into our minds so that we can access that information, because it is pertinent to our learning for that lifetime.  But in the end, since we are really all connected and one, can't we all tap into the universal mind to experience any existence?  So, when we are having those memories of alternate experiences, who are we being then?  Now my brain is starting to hurt.

Incidentally, this friend of mine passed away last year.  When I found out about her passing, she came to me in a dream as a black panther.  I knew the panther was her, because I know her energetic signature.  There was no question it was her.  She took that form to make a symbolic statement for me.   We are each a unique essence that is knowable no matter what form we are in.

Once, during a Life Between Lives hypnosis session, while in my soul-state in the spirit world, my father came to me.  He was pure energy.  I could feel his essence completely and it was him, but he had no form other than this flowing energy that was a distinct color.  The color was like a mixture of gold, green, yellow, and tan.  When we are not in a body, we are still who we are at the soul level and so much more.

I have had very real experiences of being in different forms.  One time in a dream that felt more like a memory than a dream, I was a moth.  I was sleeping under the wooden seat on a wooden canoe on a peaceful lake at dawn.  The boat was close to shore.  Some humans were walking to the boat about to take a canoe ride together.  I remember hearing those humans talking and walking toward the canoe, knowing they were about to get into it and that I had to force myself to wake up fully and fly away even though I was tired.  I did not want to fly away since I had been sleeping and was still tired, but as any moth would do, I flew away once they stepped into the canoe.  How could I have such a memory of being a moth?  I have no idea, but I did.

Another time while meditating, I spontaneously became a dolphin.  I was swimming through the water and could feel the soft water on my dolphin skin.  I was moving up and down through the water as a dolphin does and I was with one of my friends, someone I know in this life.  We decided to incarnate as humans to experience this type of physicality, at least this was my knowing when we were swimming together as dolphins.

Another experience I had was one night when I was falling asleep.  At the moment of falling asleep, I became a lion.  I was walking as the lion and felt like this was who I really was and that being the human Stephanie was more of a temporary existence.  As soon as I became consciously aware of being the lion, I woke up and was pulled out of the lion and completely back into Stephanie.  The next night, upon falling asleep, the exact same thing happened.

There are infinite parallel universes with infinite yous.  For every decision you make, there are alternate yous making different decisions to fulfill all the other options available in that situation in order to experience all possibilities.  This ensures that your soul experiences everything within the realm of possible to bring that information back to your soul family, Oversoul, Monad and back to God.  The yous in all those other parallel realities are just like the you you are now with negligible differences.  This is the explanation I recently read in Dolores Cannon's, The Convoluted Universe, Book One.  I don't know what is truth, but this is a fun concept that I have also read about in one of Neale Donald Walsch's books.

That may explain the dream I once had in which I was having a deep-hearted conversation with my parents, who were not really my parents in this life.  But they were my parents in some reality and it was I, Stephanie, who was talking to them.  But maybe it was another I that I was tapping into.  The situation and feelings applied to this life as me, too.

Another unusual experience I had was when I was talking to a friend and suddenly I was overcome with the feeling that I was her and she was me; there was no separation or other.  It was a surreal feeling and hard to describe.  This happened twice with two different friends and it was the same exact feeling.

So, who am I?  I am consciousness.  I am a spark of the Divine.  And so are you.  I am you and you are me and we are being different aspects of each other, because we are all God.  We are one.

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